Monday, December 7, 2009

Confession

I'm scared that when I finally get married I'll be too old to have children.

Confession

I purposely don't answer when you call sometimes so that I don't seem too available.

Confession

I'm getting married in a week and I'm scared to death that my fiance will get cold feet and call the wedding off the night before or not end up showing up at the church on our wedding day.

Confession

I want a divorce but I don't think I'll ever have the guts to actually get one.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Confession

I've tried so many diets and nothing works. I weighed myself the other day and I gained 5 pounds in 2 days even though I'm on a diet. I can't take it anymore and yesterday I broke my diet and ate a cake and a bag of chips and then I cried for an hour feeling guilty because I gave in.

Confession

I wish I could tell you how much I love you.

Confession

I've started having feelings for a guy the past few months and last week he told me he loves me. The problem is that I have a boyfriend and even though I don't want to be with him anymore I can't just end it with him that easily because he's abusive. I'm scared that if I leave my boyfriend for another guy he'll go find the other guy and beat the life out of him. So I told him he should forget about me and that I don't love him back. I hope that whenever I get out of this relationship that it won't be to late for us, and that he'll still be there waiting for me.

Confession

Most of the guys I've dated have been complete jerks. My current boyfriend is great and nothing like the guys I've dated before, but I've gone through so much with other guys that I'm scared and I know I'm holding back because at the back of my mind I think that it's too good to be true and that he'll end up turning out like the rest of them.

Confession

I wish I had a sister so that I could have someone who would understand me and my family.

Confession

I'm scared of being alone so I cling on to any guy willing to be with me just to ease my fears.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Confession

I work 13 hours a day because I'm scared of sitting down and realizing how fast life is passing me by.

Confession

I started going gray when I was 13 years old. I've been coloring my hair since then and only my mother knows that at 23 my hair is completely gray and has been since I was 16.

Confession

I prefer my vibrator over having sex with my husband.

Confession

I'm scared of growing old alone.

Confession

I've been working as an undercover cop for the past few months and it's been the hardest time of my life. I can't tell my family the truth and they are very judgmental. I was addicted to drugs for a while and since then I have gotten clean and joined the police. Because I have first hand knowledge of the drug world they chose me to go undercover. My family has no idea and they think that I've just gotten sucked into the criminal world and they've cut me off. My family is all I have and it hurts to think that as long as I am working undercover I have lost my family.

Confession

I regret sleeping with a guy I've been in love with for a year because I know he'll never think of me seriously now...

Friday, December 4, 2009

Confession

I used to be an addict and recently one of my friends started using and even though I've been clean for a few years I am beginning to feel like the temptation is going to get the better of me...

Confession

My husband wants to wait a few years before we have kids, but I rather have them now rather than later...so I've been trying different things so that I can "accidentally" get pregnant..

Confession

I've met a guy online but I can't tell anyone about it because I know my friends and family wouldn't approve.

Confession

I secretly hate my father for everything he has put us through.

Confession

My aunt gave me a pearl necklace to wear to my friend's wedding, because I don't have much jewelry. I had quite a bit to drink at the wedding and when I woke up the next day the necklace was missing. I looked everywhere and even called the hall but it's nowhere. She's called me twice since then but I purposely ignored the calls. I have no idea how to tell her I lost her favorite necklace and it will take months for me to save up the money to buy a new one.

Confession

On Monday when my husband is at work, I will be meeting a man I've fallen for, which will be the beginning of our affair.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Confession

I've secretly been picking my nose and eating it for as long as I can remember.

Confession

My husband is starting to go gray and refuses to color his hair so I've been putting small amounts of hair dye in his shampoo for the last few weeks and the graying has stopped now...

Confession

I am very jealous of my younger sister. Everything seems to come easier for her. She's very talented and smart. Everything that I'm not. She's also a stick compared to me. She used to be chubby and she worked hard to lose a lot of weight. She always has guys/girls always wanting her. It honestly makes me feel like shit. Because I'm honestly fat, I weigh 170 to her 100 pounds. I never have any luck finding a significant other. Sometimes I find a guy/girl that likes me until they see my sister and then there like "she's so gorgeous. How old is she? What's her number?" She's only 15 and I'm 19 and I guess it makes me jealous bc the guys I LIKE want her. She's everything I've always wanted to be. Thin, successful, beautiful, smart... I feel I'll never be as good as her. I'm fat, I'm not smart at all, I don't feel beautiful. I try not to show that I'm jealous, because don't get me wrong she's my best friend who I love dearly, but sometimes I wish I was dealt with a nice hand of cards and be just as happy as her...

Confession

My boyfriend treats me great and he worships me, but I still fall asleep thinking about my ex boyfriend, even though he used to get physical with me sometimes.

Confession

There are days where so much shit goes wrong, I just cross my fingers and pray that I don't wake up. I seriously squeeze my eyes so tight together, to the point that they hurt, and think about how dying would be so much easier than this. But, all I know is that it's going to get better. I don't know when, I don't know how, I just simply know it is. Sometimes, I just want to shut the world off; the noises, the cars beeping, the people yelling. I don't want to listen. I want to scream, until I have lost my voice, because I am losing my sanity. I never wanted any of this, ever.

Confession

I'm scared that someone might be stalking me. Out of nowhere these past few weeks I keep seeing the same guy in a bunch of different places. I work in retail and the first time I saw him was when I was at work. Ever since I've seen him at a restaurant I went to twice, and he was their both times, at my university a few times, and even at another mall. It's creeping me out because I live in a big city and it's almost impossible to randomly run in to people, and he's probably 40 or older so its weird that he would even be at a university. I haven't seen him near my house, yet, so I can at least feel safe at house, but every time I'm out in public I'm always looking over my shoulders.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Confession

I overheard my best friend talking to another friend about how she has feelings for my boyfriend. I can't trust her anymore, and can't believe that she would go around telling everyone but me.

Confession

My mom kicked me out of the house because she thinks I'm doing drugs...If only she knew the drugs weren't mine and that they're my brothers, her perfect little boy who never does anything wrong.

Confession

I just found out I was adopted and I've been secretly looking for my biological parents ever since I found out...I have a great family but I guess you just can't help but want to know your biological roots, no matter how bad they could possibly be.

Confession

My mom will randomly disappear for days on end and its been going on for as long as I can remember. I have no idea where she disappears to and I've never asked because it's sort of understand that it's a subject we don't talk about. I'm not 10 years old though now, and this secrets getting to be a bit much. She would never tell me so I think I might have to follow her out one of these days...

Confession

Someone broke in to our house last week and stole all our electronics including my external hard drive which had sexy videos of my girlfriend on it. Now I'm freaking out because they weren't password protect and whoever stole it has probably already seen them. I'm worried that they might send them out on the internet or upload them to websites where anyone could see them. I haven't told my girlfriend yet because I don't know how to tell her without her freaking out and getting histerical.

Confession

I heard my parents talking about how I was an accident, and how their lives would have been so much easier if my mother hadn't accidentally gotten pregnant with me. I've always felt really loved but now I wonder if it's more of an act than a genuine emotion.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Confession

My best friend moved away for university and she slowly stopped answering my calls and messages. It hurts to think how so many years of friendship could so easily be forgotten.

Confession

I think I'd be relieved if my father died. Our lives would be simpler without him around.

Confession

I'm scared of intimacy so I purposely seek out long distance relationships so I can have someone to talk to without having to worry about getting intimate.

Confession

I was pissed at my sister the other day for something she did to me so I purposely wet the floor outside her bedroom door. Less than a half hour later I heard a banging sound and came out and saw her laying on the floor. Her left leg is half bruised and I secretly smile every time I see the bruise.

Confession

For the last 6 months I've been in love with my boyfriend's older brother. I go over to his house often just so that I can see his brother.

Confession

I lied about my religion so my boyfriend would date me.