Confession

I have this fake front that loves herself and her body. But when I go home and I'm by myself I record every food or drink that goes pass my lips and throw up everything I eat. I have a fake front, because I want people to think I'm over my eating disorder, so I don't get sent away again or watched by my friends. But honestly, I don't think I'll ever get it and I kinda don't want to be over it. Because it helps me to lose weight and I love the results when I do. Mind fucked, huh? You have no idea.