Monday, November 30, 2009
My neighbor is the most obnoxious person I have ever met. They have 2 dogs and almost every day I am shoveling their dogs poop off my lawn. The only reason I haven't said anything to them is because I don't want to start a feud and have to deal with that as well.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 1:37 PM
I am so sick of fighting with people, nothing good ever comes from it. I've tried stopping, and it simply doesn't work. My friends rivalries with each other tear me apart and now I've lost someone I really care about. I love my friends to death, but why does friendship with them have to be so complicated? I just want them all to get along and for all of us to stop criticizing each other so often. Whenever this happens, and I lose someone in my life, I'm left crying for weeks and I've gotten so sick of crying.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 7:53 AM
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
I'm attracted to two guys who are best friends. The problem is that one of them likes me, but not the one I like more. I'm afraid if I pursue something with him that I'll lose any chances of ever having a relationship with the other guy. However, the guy that I like more might never like me and I might lose the chance to have a great relationship with the one that actually really likes me.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 10:05 PM
I've been depressed for years and was thinking of ending my life one day when one of my friends called me and as we were talking she told me how she didn't know what she would do without me and that she wanted me to know that she would always be there for me. After I got off the phone I realized how selfish my wanting to take my life was and how it would affect my friends and family as well. Since then I've gotten treatment and I feel confident that some day I will be as happy as I was when I was an innocent young child.
Friday, November 27, 2009
When I was in elementary school I hated a pair of shoes one of my classmates used to always wear, so one day I told her that I would pack her back for her while she went to get her jacket from the closet. Well when she was gone I took her shoes and hid them in the garbage. She came back and didn't pay any attention to the fact that I hadn't put them in backpack. The next day she came to school with a different pair shoes, and she never said anything to me about the disappearing shoes.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 7:16 PM
My father always wanted to have a son, and after 4 kids, my parents still didn't end up with a boy. My father never showed us any affection, but as I've gotten older I've realized that my father resents us. It hurts to think that he cared more about continuing the family line, than about his own daughters. We're still his blood even if me and my sisters aren't boys. I can't wait to finally be 18 and move away for university where I won't have deal with him every day.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 1:52 PM
I was looking for an address that my husband had saved in his phone and while looking for it he received a message from a woman named Carol, that said "we should get together more often...". The problem is I've never met or heard of a woman named carol, and the ... at the end of the message left to much to be desired for. I deleted it and I haven't told my husband yet. I'm so confused, I never would have believed that he would cheat on me, but after reading that text message I don't know what to think anymore. I'm scared if I try to confront him that he'll just deny anything and cover his tracks in the future. I want to find out the truth without tipping him off. If he is cheating on me he's not going to get away with it that easily. I didn't put 12 year into a marriage to end up getting stepped all over.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 10:57 AM
I sometimes feel attracted to other guys and feel tempted to cheat but I hold back because I don't want to lose you. It's not that I don't love you, I do, but sometimes the attraction is so strong I'm scared one day I won't be able to control myself and I'll end up giving in and losing you in the end.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 7:41 AM
Thursday, November 26, 2009
I'm in love with the boy who sits next to me in English class. We talk all the time, and I'm terrified that the teacher will switch our seats to separate us. She doesn't realize that sitting next to him in English is the highlight of my days and moving us apart would ruin me.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
The reason why I do drugs is because it numbs me. It makes me forget about reality for awhile. The scary part about it is that I'm afraid I'm turning into an addict. I'm high at least once a day. When I'm not high, I tend to get real irritated. Whenever I get my hands on money, I go out and spend it all on drugs. What's really sad about it is that no one really knows how bad I've gotten out of control. Everyone just thinks I smoke pot. But little do they know, I do a lot more stuff and even some "harder" stuff. The people that know about my problem think I need rehab. Do you?
Posted by confessionsofeden at 8:26 PM
My best friend is a guy and we grew up together. We've always hung out a lot and recently I started to have feelings for him, the only problem is that he has a girlfriend. Well the other day we were hanging out and we ended up kissing, and now I don't know what to do. I've been trying to avoid him as much as possible because I don't want to be around him and have the same thing happen, until he breaks it off with his girlfriend, if he even plans on leaving her for me.
I miss my ex boyfriend. I hate how I can't tell anyone because they all hate his guts. They hate that I still talk to him, but I can't help it. We went through SO much when we were together. I would love to be with him again. He asked me back out maybe a couple weeks ago and I didn't have an answer. (He took it as a no.) And the sucky thing about it is that I regret saying what I did, because if I told him yes, we would probably be together now.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 1:42 PM
I had a dream about a friend of mine and in it there was a war going on and he ended up getting shot. After getting shot he fell numb and I caught him in my arms, feeling the dead weight of his body. I laid him on the floor, where he was unconscious and bleeding. I was frantically running around trying to find someone who could help or find his parents to let them know, but everyone seemed to disappear and anyone left around us didn't seem phased. I was crying frantically before waking up in a panic. I spent 2 hours crying nonstop after waking up, even though I realized that it was still a dream. That dream made me realize I was in love with someone who I had never thought of romantically, and who I hadn't seen in more than a year. It'll be months before I see him again, and I just hope that he isn't seeing someone and that I can find the courage to let him know how I feel.
I feel so.. mean. I never noticed how much she still messes with you. I'm always so mean to you, trying to get away. But I don't feel like you need or want or even deserve that. Maybe you need someone here to comfort you, and I'll do that, no matter how much it kills me. Because I love you.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 12:00 AM
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
I broke up with my boyfriend a few months ago and it bothers me that I can't seem to forget his phone number. I want more than anything not to remember it off by heart. It will make me feel like I've finally moved on and erased him completely from my life.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 7:27 PM
My best friend and I used to be so close but every since we started high school she's been blowing me off and acting completely different just to impress some fake crowd. It's so annoying and it hurts to think that she could ignore me so easily after almost 15 years of being friends.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 4:38 PM
My mother's an alcoholic and she's been trying to get sober for the last month. She seemed a lot better and I believed her, until I came home last week and saw her passed out on the floor. I called an ambulance and they said she had overdosed and that if I didn't call for an ambulance she probably would have died a few hours later. I'm thankful that she didn't die but I'm just so mad at her at the same time.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 1:49 PM
Every day I wish I could go back and not break up with my boyfriend. It's been 2 months since I broke up with him and all I think about every day is how much I regret it. He's too prideful and won't take me back even if I begged him to and all I can think about is how happy I would be right now if we were still together.
I'm still completely in love with one of my ex girlfriends. I tell everyone I'm not because they hate her and don't understand why I keep talking to her, instead of hating her. She's on my mind everyday, and it kills me to keep it secret. The best part is, she's in love with someone else.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 7:45 AM
Monday, November 23, 2009
I don't understand why some guys have such a hard time understanding that you're not attracted to them. If I told you I'm not into you and that I like someone else why would think that some chocolates and stalking me around would make me change my mind. All you've done is made clear how annoying you can be.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 7:38 PM
I get telemarketing calls at least a few times every day. Some days the calls are all from the same number, and they call at the most annoying times like 7 in the morning on a saturday or during dinner time, so what I started doing recently is answering the phone and hanging up without saying anything. It's a great stress reliever knowing that I probably pissed them off a little, which is some sweet payback.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 2:07 PM
I'm a girl who's dating a transgendered female to male. I'm completely in love with him, but no one knows about our relationship. I wish I could just tell everyone, but they wouldn't understand. My parents are extremely homophobic, and they would never understand either. I would be disowned... so I'm planning on moving across the country one day, away from all of them.
I went through school and even graduated, but what no one knew is that I was illiterate. At 27 years old I finally got the courage to admit to someone that I was illiterate, and I have a tutor for 2 years now and can finally read and write. I don't know how I used to live without being able to read even a simple road sign.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 8:20 AM
Sunday, November 22, 2009
I live at my boyfriend's parents one floor apartment and we don't usually have privacy so it's hard to have sex, so whenever his parents are going out, we make sure that we're home so we can have sex. I even sometimes ask them to pick something up for me when they're out so that I can keep them gone for longer.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 11:19 PM
My father left us when I was only 8 years old but all I had were good memories of him. I recently found out he was living an hour away and for the past 2 months I've been going and visiting him secretly. If my siblings and my mother found out they wouldn't understand.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 11:10 AM
Saturday, November 21, 2009
My boyfriend doesn't let me go anywhere without him and it drives me crazy. I can't even go for coffee or to the mall with my best friend without him wanting to tag along. And then he whines the whole time about how bored he is and complains that all the stores we're going to are girly and that I ignore him...we'll ya I'm shopping with my best friend, why would 2 women be going to anything but female stores? Last time I checked we don't wear male clothes. It's happened so many times and he always complains about the same thing. It drives me crazy. If he doesn't like it, then just don't follow me like a puppy when I go out with my best friend.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 7:08 PM
my best friend is dating another one of my good friends, but the catch is that they're both girls...i know i've lost my best friend for a while, at least, but i can't lose more friends because they all decide to date each other. so ladies, if you're reading this, please stop while the relationship is still new, before you break apart more than a few friendships.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 7:47 AM
Friday, November 20, 2009
I have OCD and I'm afraid of going out on dates, because I'm scared that my date will think I'm weird and then freak out and leave. It's been almost 10 years since I've had a relationship and I sometimes feel like I'm just going to die alone someday.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 9:12 PM
I saw my boyfriend hit his mother and I don't know what to do. I wasn't in the room where it happened but I saw him hit her from the hallway and he doesn't know that I saw what happened. I've never seen him hit her before and he's never hit me, but I've also never seen him so full of rage. It scared me and I don't know what to make of it, and what I should do.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 8:13 AM
I have not been with my ex-boyfriend for almost a year now. Our breakup put me in a weird place, I tried numbing the pain with everything possible, nothing worked, and the pain has barely eased up. After everything he's put me through, I still find myself each day trying to find new ways to make him notice me again.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 12:24 AM
Thursday, November 19, 2009
I have this fake front that loves herself and her body. But when I go home and I'm by myself I record every food or drink that goes pass my lips and throw up everything I eat. I have a fake front, because I want people to think I'm over my eating disorder, so I don't get sent away again or watched by my friends. But honestly, I don't think I'll ever get it and I kinda don't want to be over it. Because it helps me to lose weight and I love the results when I do. Mind fucked, huh? You have no idea.
I had breast implants put in almost 10 years ago and my husband has no idea. I only added a size so the difference isn't dramatic and they still look fairly natural. I was attacked by a dog when I was younger and so I have a few scars from that attack on my stomach and I just told my husband that the scars from the surgery on my chest are from the dog attack.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
I've been with my boyfriend for 6 years and he's never mentioned wanting to get married. I've tried to bring up the conversation or hint at how I'm ready for us to get married, but I'm afraid he just has no plans for us to get married, and I don't know what I should do. I don't want to leave him because I love him, but I can't be with someone who doesn't love me enough to want to spend the rest of our lives together.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 9:29 PM
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
I can't seem to concentrate on anything but this guy I've been in love with for the past month. I go to class and the only notes I have are pages filled with his name. I don't know how I'm going to study for my exams that are coming up in a few weeks, but they seem so insignificant compared to him.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 11:26 AM
Monday, November 16, 2009
I used to write poems all the time but I haven't for a few years now, and people keep telling me that they can't believe I'm wasting my talent by not writing, but what they don't know is that I'm only inspired to write when I'm depressed and I haven't been for the last few years.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 11:22 PM
I resent having to go to university and get a degree. I wish I was born 100 years when women didn't have so much pressure to go to school. All I want to do is have a family and take care of my home. What does adding 40 hours a week of office work really contribute to my life anyways?
Posted by confessionsofeden at 3:15 PM
I hate how my "friend" acts like we're best friends, when all she uses me for is to tell me her secrets because I actually know how to keep them unlike the rest of the people she hangs out with, but then when she goes out she almost never invites me or ends up ditching me in the end.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 11:03 AM
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Saturday, November 14, 2009
I truly believe Jesus Christ hates roman catholics, zionist jews, feminists, homosexuals, fake religious pharisees, people who hide behind man made religions including buddhism, islam, oriental religions, mormonism, JWs and I honestly believe Jesus Christ will wipe all these people off the face of the earth one day and send them to hell for eternity. I haven't talked to my father and mother for years, my mother is a new age psycholigizer feminist, and my father is a die hard roman catholic, they are very old and not far from death. I have no relationship with them anymore, and I wait for the day they both will die. I fantasize about dancing on my fathers grave after he dies in jublilation, he showed no mercy when beating my mother in front of me when I was 4 years old and my mother showed no mercy committing adultery on him during that same time. This is how I really feel, not making any of this up.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 1:05 PM
Friday, November 13, 2009
I have been living in a love-less marriage for 10 years now. My husband doesn't believe in divorce and I'm afraid that I will have to live the rest of my life condemned to an unhappy marriage until the day that either I die, or my husband dies, whichever comes first.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 2:46 PM
Thursday, November 12, 2009
I have cancer so I lost my hair and I now wear a wig. I haven't told anyone except for my husband and my parents, and when I see people I know they keep telling me how great I look and how my hair looks so amazing. I just think to myself, If only they knew.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 11:44 PM
I've been married for 5 years but I'm still in love with my ex. I have some pictures and gifts that he gave me stashed away in my closet and when I'm alone I take them out and remember the times that we were together. I care about my husband but he's just not the love of my life.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
I'm a complete screw up and can't seem to get anything right. I flunked out of school, I can't keep a guy for more than a month, and my friends are just as screwed up as I am. My parents don't talk to me anymore and I don't know what to do now that I've lost my job.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 3:31 PM
At my work they are pretty strict about talking so what we do is write post it notes to each other and stick them onto our files and then give them to whomever the note is intended for. Well for a year now I've been in love with one of my colleagues and I have kept all the notes that he's ever given me. I have them stuck to the wall in my closet that way I can see them and relive our conversations whenever I want. I want to let him know how I feel but I just can't seem to find a way to tell him.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 12:43 PM
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
I found out that my husband was having an affair with a married woman, and in our house while I was at work. In order to pay them back I set the webcam on our house laptop to motion detect and caught them on camera. I took some still shots from the video and printed out numerous copies and went and put them in the mailboxes of her neighbors. She never contacted my husband again.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 9:21 PM
Monday, November 9, 2009
I suspected that my boyfriend was cheating on me with a co-worker of his, so I put a bug on his briefcase and when he was supposedly working late one night, I heard more than I needed to be sure of his affair and packed his stuff up and left them outside my apartment with a note saying “Don't Call me.” He never did call, and I love thinking of how he would have wondered why I'd break up with him so "unexpectedly".
Posted by confessionsofeden at 8:33 AM
Sunday, November 8, 2009
I live in an apartment and every night for weeks these young kids would come to the square below and sit, laughing and yelling until 2 in the morning. I got fed up eventually and bought some balloons which I filled with ice cold water and set them on my balcony ready when they would show up. That night when I heard their yelling and laughing I got out of bed went and grabbed the balloons and hurled as many as I could at them. They never figured out which apartment the barrage of balloons was from, and they never came back again.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 1:56 PM
Saturday, November 7, 2009
My brother was pissing me off non-stop for a whole week and so I decided to get even with him. I took his after shave bottle and emptied out the contents and then filled it with witch hazel alcohol. The next time he shaved and put on the “after-shave” his screams could be heard throughout the house and his face then developed a lumpy rash. He never figured it out that I had tampered with the aftershave and assumed that it simply was harsher than the after shave he normally buys, because it was a cheap no name brand.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 9:58 PM
My neighbor has an annoying dog who barks all day and all night long. The barking drives me nuts so I bought a laser and decided to flash the laser a few feet in front of the dog to see if it would start chasing the laser. Well, it definitely started chasing the laser and so did the owner who was walking the dog. They must have had a nice mile long run.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 5:23 PM
I called my boyfriend to tell him I'd be late because of the traffic and when we were done talking he didn't hang up the phone properly and I could still hear him talking along with another female voice. I stayed on the line to see if I could hear who the women was when I started hearing sex noises. We're not together anymore.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 5:21 PM
My 13 year old daughter has a teen girl magazine subscription and so she gets a magazine in the mail every month. I always gets the mail in the morning while she is at school and usually skim through the magazine to see if there is anything that I don't feel she should be reading. Well, one day I came across an article about public lice and decided that she didn't need to know that it existed and how it could be transmitted so I ripped the page out of the magazine and tossed the magazine on the porch. When my daughter asked why there was a page missing I told her that it must have ripped off from the wind while it was on the porch.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 5:07 PM
I hate the frumpy way that my husband dresses and one day I took a few of his shirts and tossed them out, while he was at work. When he noticed that they were missing I told him I had no idea where they were and that he must have forgotten them somewhere while away on business.
I have a video camera on my front door, which films all the activity going on in front of my house. I like to watch the video not to see if anyone was doing anything suspicious on my property, but to see what people do when they think that no one is watching.
Posted by confessionsofeden at 5:03 PM